I'm Not Ready To Talk
by 19 years old
I'm 19. I haven’t told anyone yet, not even a doctor. This is actually my first time speaking on it with anyone except the person who gave this terrible curse to me.
I'm a very well known person. I have a very well reputation. I am handsome.
My girlfriend isn't the girl for me yet I'm still with her because I have gotten herpes.
I'm very good at convincing myself I could be with her for the rest of my life but my feelings do not match.
I'm too young to find age appropriate women on STD dating sites..
And many will reply to this wanting to tell me to wait I'm young and need to take time "doing" me before I get married but f*** that I'm very mature have endless things going for me. I'm ready to settle down or at least work on doing that and prepare for my future now.
I don't know what to do. Or what I'm asking of you readers .
Idk... I find myself blocking this out of my life like it’s not there but it is...
I wish to find the woman for me but it looks like I'll be waiting a few years...
I might need hope. I might need a solution.
I might not need anything but to talk about it for the first time even if it is on some random website.
I’m the type of person who always needs to improve myself, adapt, and rise up.
But for the first time in my life I don’t know where to begin.